September 19, 2011

The Black Orchid ~

How Grief Speaks

Feelings stir inside the shell stumbling
trying to fit into the mind that does
all the massive instructing,
a balancing act directing
the tired body where to go,
what to do and how to mentally
handle its grief and sorrow

Wondering how to digest it all
how to come to terms with the
event surrounding the hollow
feeling generated deep within,
feelings that I have not come to
terms with as insight developed slowly
during a fourteen month period as
the tone of his voice heightened

The sudden loss of a friend, a neighbor,
a lost soul who turned to me with eternal
desperation in hoped to be comforted during
his spell of discomfort, during his moment
in the place where he went hiding from
the world he didn’t truly understand
searching for a moments peace of mind

I am thinking of him, lost myself for I
couldn’t help him in his black moment as
he tried to justify his untruth of reality
that was too deep to understand for as
he pondered the situation he grew deeper
into anxiety and stress that put him over
the edge for that day, but knowing tomorrow,
he would slip back again into his gentle world -

of his own meaning of life

The Orchid, the Love of Cary Eferstein's Life...

6 comments:

  1. I'm Carys cousin, Robert, from Hawaii. I just found out about his passing. He is a good man and allways had a kind heart. I know he and my uncle Alan, uncle Moiche, and aunt Harriet, are together now.

    Thank you for this wonderfull poem.

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  2. Thank you for this poem. Although we were not married, we share our wonderful daughter and he loved her beyond belief.

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  3. Thank you so much for writing this about my Dad. I just came across it. It is beautiful. My Dad spoke a lot about you. I miss him very much. Thank you again.
    Pam-Cary's Daughter

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  4. Thank you for your comment Janie. Sometimes comments baffle me as I try to figure out their meaning. Cary was married and had one daughter. Now I wonder if we are talking about the same daughter? rg

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  5. Thank you for your comment - it would be nice to know what state you live in??? rg

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  6. I think of Cary often - I tear up reading this dedicated poem to him. A gentle soul was he, kind hearted and loved animals as I did/do. I look to his apartment window and still feel his presents. Cary my friend - you are missed...rg

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